My eyes blur red,
        I'm silenced by your hesitations.
My pulse bleeds,
        soul screams
you're in my veins,
        pure,
distilling my blood.
Their empathetic prayers
        fall short.
I'm blind
        floating in the void.
A vacuum that
        must be filled......

Cool snow on my face
        freezing my silence,
My heart.
        Its too cold here
With you
        Alone.

No where to go
        the warmth
its all gone
        to my head.
I see god,
        he's blonde.
Spiraling down
        with my tears.
My secret tears,
        Tearing me apart.
They're so sharp
        it hurts.

I see the bottom
        in shades of gold.
Flames lick my face
        like amphetamine
fed puppies
        all alone
I feel
        it
like home.
My brothers
My sisters
They're crying
out for me.

I'm upside down
        drowning
in their tears.
My breath comes
        in waves.
There's nothing
left here.

All I wanted was to fit in.
That's how it is
with
    us,
the
        city
        kids.