Heat |
A prose poem Rant |
by Marie Countryman |
(3/29/99) |
it's so goddamned hot outside the asphalt is sticking
to my sandals that are cutting into my swollen feet from the heat the
heat the goddamned heat. and my mind is two hemispheres burning like two
over hard with bacon sizzling on the sidewalk and the heat it makes me
ugly inside and so i go outside to share it with my fellow mankind and i
walk endlessly up and down the main street, crossing at every crosswalk
just to make the cars spotty have to, its the law--and so i can make a
car stop on a dime, a truck shudder to a halt and stall and through it
all i look balefully at them from behind my sunglasses, and its the
goddamned heat . .. i know now why people go postal and yes i am really
ugly now. i'm so ugly that i can pinch the antelopes to see if they are
ripe and i tap my foot impatiently and talk to myself out loud in the
express lane which is anything but and i go and rent a wim wenders video
is hot its so hot it's steamy and i don't understand the dialogue and i
am so hot that when i get into the bath i set off vapors-- the water
simmers on contact. and what's the point, when i get out i am drenched
in my own foul sweat again within ten minutes, and there is this guy at
the end of the block, he wears the same people tee shirt every day and
he walks with this jerky sway back rhythm looking deranged, especially
his face because it is a mirror of my own behind my dark glasses and i
want to know why every street i move to has the junkies and the dealers
at the corner which has the only set of two public phones in the whole
goddamned neighborhood, an i walk around there at night and watch them:
they have to phone before they go upstairs and i wonder what it would
feel like to fall back into that life but no that's not what's really
eating at me, it's the heat the heat the goddamned heat. |