"This was not my idea. Jack is a friend and asked,
so..." Professor
Molacha stood clutching a spiral notebook and looked
down at the tiny man sitting on the steel bunk, his
legs dangling over the edge at least a foot off the
floor.
"Shut up and sit down, Sugar. I know why you are
here and I had no idea muscle head had any friends. A
new situation maybe?" He motioned to the plastic
folding chair the sheriff had provided after strenuous
objections. 'Nothing hard, Doc. Too easy for him to
grab it and start swinging. He's a whole lot stronger
than he ought to be."
Molacha's eyes widened at the mention of his
childhood nickname. Raimundo was always Ray when he
was young. With Molacha it became remolacha: beet. He
had been a moderately popular kid, not one to take
offense easily, so he had not minded when his friends
made the transition from beet to sugarbeet, then to
plain sugar. But that was so many years ago that few
remembered it.
"Jack was right, you know things you shouldn't.
How do you do that?
Can't be research. Or can it?"
"Right, Sugar. Research. Drilled for smart and
struck dumb." He sat
looking at the floor, kicking his feet like a little
boy. "Look. It's obvious no one, including you, has
any idea who you are dealing with, so if we are going
to do this let's look for some light. And with
rapidity, OK?"
"And with a minimum of sarcasm. I'll try not to
be so stupid." He flipped open the spiral, clicked a
ballpoint, and looked the elf up and down.
"Didn't say you were stupid. Said... I meant you
were...oh hell! It was a
smartass remark anyway. Not dumb, ignorant." The
little man seemed
subdued.
"Yes, Well...when it comes to...how shall I say
this?...nonhumans I must admit my ignorance is near
complete. Jack said you insist you are not human, is
that right?"
"No foreplay, huh? Not even a kiss? OK, I can
live without it." he said, settling back on the bunk,
his hands folded behind his head. "Where should we
start? Maybe where you tell me why an astronomer is
playing shrink? Maybe I should tell YOU."
"Does that bother you? That I am not
qualified?"
"No, no, you reek of qualification. No jive,
Sugar. So let me start where I want." the elf raised
his head and stared at the professor with a mild,
almost sad, expression. "This may seem a bit strange
but...well...you deserve a bit more of the truth than
you wanted to know, so..."
Deserve? thought Molacha. Interesting he isn't
nasty with me.
"I'm not nasty! I'm just trying to get through.
You have the slightest idea what it's like to be a
major world figure for nine hundred years and come up
to a situation like this? Of course not. Have to have
been there. OK. First, I wasn't born. Not anywhere
or anytime, I just am. I came with the Mother and will
go out with Her. Hope I can ditch the clothes before
we go." He looked with disgust at his red coat and
pants trimmed with ermine, at his shiny black buccaneer
boots, all the while twirling a red fur trimmed
stocking cap. " I hate this stuff. Who wears clothes
like this? Who EVER wore them!"
"Not born, just is." The professor said it as he
wrote. "That IS a bit
unusual, don't you think? You make it sound like a
package deal."
"Package...? Not brilliant, but better." When
the elf laughed it left a shrill trail on Molacha's
nervous system. "There are a lot of us. We came with
Her."
"You are not from around here, then?" Molacha
scribbled something in the spiral.
"We settled in the north of Europe. She liked the
possibilities and I found some pretty nice girls my
size."
"Tell me about your mother. Did you get along?
Where was your father all this time?"
"How could anyone but a weak fleshed human devil,
with which this
benighted planet teems, NOT 'get along' with The
Mother? Everything you have comes from Her, every bit
of food, the very basics of living are all from Her.
Who in their right mind...but, there you go. That's
the answer to the first two if you have ears. And
Father...well...what can one say about dear old dad?
What do you know about war gods?"
"Your Father was God?" Molacha asked without
looking up from his
notebook.
"Right! God! What an idiot you can be without
half trying. I asked what YOU knew about war gods.
Got that? Plural. Gods, with an S." The sinister
smile had returned to the elf's lips. And the leer to
the eye.
The professor looked up with a start. "Wha...?
Oh. I am sorry. My mind wanders."
"Really? So lets wander, only together."
"OK, good. I am truly sorry to have
lost...hmm...where do you want to go first?"
"History." The little man crossed his legs on
the bunk and rocked side to side, a waving sea plant, a
tree in a mountain breeze.
"The basics, good. I know so little about..."
"Just about everything, even what you profess to
know well. Professor. Hah!" He shut his eyes tight
as though that might stop the flow of insults.
"OK, history, from the top, like where everything
began." He closed his eyes and continued the slight
motion. "You and your kind, the others, believe some
strange stuff. Like infinitesimally small original
matter that went bang and there everything was, even
Time. Some kind of cosmic Oops. A fart, maybe. You
will forgive me please if I refer hereafter to such
theories as crap." He waited.
"Yes, the Inflationary Theory. It might be
interesting to hear your ideas on that."
"No it wouldn't and I am no 'layman'. I'm Ol'
Nick. I KNOW things,
alright? This is no theory, no collection of pixels,
buddy. We're talking
reality here. So, if I may be so bold, just shut the
hell up and listen." He
opened his eyes and glared.
Molacha looked down at his spiral, ballpoint
poised. There was a feeling about this tiny...what?
Man? Elf? Oh come on! Give me a break! he thought.
Ok, I'll listen and try not to be condescending.
"That would be good. You are an opinionated
arrogant bastard, you know that?" The professor kept
his eyes on the notebook and said nothing. Santa
closed his eyes and began.
"The coupling of genders is not the beginning.
It is not even what IS.
Coupling is the process not the product. Like the Word
that was formed by The Tongue and put out by The
Breath. It all has an importance unknown to you,
Sugar. It is the Creator. But withal, none of Them
are The Speaker. No history starts or carries on
without The Speaker. He is not He, She is not She.
The Speaker is the One Who Is. The Unspeakable. The
problems arose when humans tried to put genitals on
God. Or Goddess, whichever."
"‘Course that nearly drove your black robes mad.
They heard it, saw it from the Fires of Beltane to the
Crow Mother of the Hopi people and they feared it,
hated what they feared and were drawn to it like moths
to a candle. It wasn't the priests we feared. It was
the ones who had shut themselves away, the ones who not
only lived a celibate life...which I understand, by the
way...but hated the other side of life, the fecundity
if you will. These were the ones who worked their
arcane darkness on the people. These were the ones who
planned the takeover of the different forms of The
Mother and made Her into something syrupy sickly sweet.
Blue is definitely not her best color."
Molacha would have grown restive if he could have
moved so much as a cell. The visions came as the elf
spoke. He saw The Great Mother draped in cheap cloth,
made to stand on serpents She Herself had nurtured and
set to their messenger tasks. He could sense the
downward motion of thought as the black robes, his
ancestors, beat the joy from the folk, made heathen a
mortally dangerous thing to be, poured the waters of
fear on the fires and generally being very bad guys.
Santa reached into a pocket Smiley Jack John had
missed in the body
search. He produced an elaborately carved briar pipe,
tamped a bit of black-as-night vegetable matter into
it, produced a flame from his finger tip and drew the
smoke deeply into his lungs. He settled into his bunk,
his back against the concrete wall, legs outstretched
straight across the width of the iron bed. "Stuff'll
kill me one day. Maybe. If they're lucky." He
cackled at his own wit.
"They found me in the fields. Not that it was so
hard to do but they RECOGNIZED me. That was amazing,
you know? These bemused ersatz holy men knew something
of what they were looking at because of their
experiences with my brothers and sisters in another
part of the planet. We are extraordinarily hard to
kill, they knew that, so they made a plan. Oh they
were great for plans! Plans for huge buildings planted
atop old holy places, plans for organizations that
brought what they thought was holy fear to the hearts
of the faithful. Just giant barbecues. The fat
bubbled in the streets as they called out to Jesus!
Humans never do anything by small measure. Anyway,
they made one of those plans for me. They discovered
that I had volunteered to The Mother to take the part
of Father Winter, the image of Justice, teller of
tales...never mind. You wouldn't understand. Had to
have been there. Sure put a wet cloth on my other
work." The little man stared sadly into the bowl of
his pipe. The sweet smoke had softened the light
coming through the cell window. He sighed a sigh much
too large for such a little being.
"Oh well. They used what they had learned from us
and from friends who used to help. That's the point,
isn't it? To help, not to hurt? These bats of
darkness put a geas on me. New clothes, jolly laugh
and all. The other stuff, the reindeer and clothes and
houses set in eternal ice, that came later. It stuck
because that was the nature of the geas. Whatever
people perceived, whatever they wanted to pass on to
their brats, was added. No matter that they were the
superstitious ramblings of drunken fools and old women
so squeezed in the vise of male custom that they
remembered only hate. What you have done to the nature
of women is..." He stiffened, his hands formed into
ugly fists thrust into the air. "You make me think
about it, you bastard! You make me remember that these
last centuries I have had other duties I had to leave
undone. Duties I liked one hell of a lot better. Oh
well..I was able at least to plant a few well crafted
thoughts about those that kept the boat afloat. I'll
get back to them one day. We are many and One! We can
be sweet and kind, gentle and soft as a fawn's coat.
We are also things you cannot imagine except in your
deepest nightmares! We are..."
A howl came from him. Rage, frustration of the
Beast. Professor Molacha opened his eyes very wide and
half rose from his chair. He could move now and was of
a complete mind to get the hell out. But the elf held
up his hand and smiled. It was not at all the sort of
look the professor expected after so hideous a sound.
He sat down, a question on his face.
"I know I know, I'm sorry. Please stay. I'll
make it short. OK?"
Molacha grunted assent but there was still a
nervous tentativeness to his posture.
"What I'm getting at is this. It's all a play.
Drama is the first thing and is supposed to incorporate
humor. Great teaching tool, but they made it serious.
Did a lot of damage. They changed the poetry into fire
and hurt. If I seem to hate them it's only because I
do. So for the last twelve centuries, give or take, I
have been doing a forced duty of representing them and
their ideas. At first I was dressed more or less like
the old days. Candles, holly, mistletoe. But the
beard itched and these stupid clothes...where the hell
did they get that idea? Yes. Hell. Well...there were
times when I gave a lump of coal to bad boys and girls,
a present for them to remember and be ashamed of
themselves. Great way to raise kids, ain't it? No
matter that a lump of coal to the poor might be the
perfect gift. The ice had receded only a little while
before and the winters were pretty stiff. But where
was I to get the ditzy little things, carts with silver
wheels, dolls, JUNK! Where does all that come from?
The folk said it was the elves that made ‘em but I
resisted that one. Bad enough they made a mockery of
one of my names by making me a Saint. I don't make
slaves of relatives. And no one lives at the North
Pole. That's plain stupid. But where does it all come
from? You guys! I steal it. Been stealing it for a
long long time and it has gotten so that whole
economies depend on the theft. Oh yeah, Ol' Nick is
the friend of Man! And bankers and grifters and
politicians! Sorry. I get excited too easily these
days. Makes me mean."
"I understand." the professor said. From the look
on his face the elf could see he really did. Or was
beginning to. This seemed to embarrass the little man.
"So, I steal. Always have. The folk used to put
out food for me so I would let them alone. Ate pretty
good in the old days! But now? I am in jail for
shoplifting! Only in this pissant town would someone
exist like the jolly white bread giant out there who
would arrest Santa Claus. And he says the judge, who I
know well, won't be back for weeks. Fishing! What a
geek! Christmas will be long gone and have you any
idea what it will be like if it passes without me? You
won't like it much. The crowrobes missed that part.
They had no future sense and didn't limit the
operation. It swelled and bloated until the whole
world was involved. Without my visit there isn't
closure to the year. Nothing ends. Winter could go on
forever! Do you get it, Sugar? I MUST be out of here
before Christmas!"
The professor ducked his head at the statement.
There was nothing he could do and the little man should
know it. He scribbled something on his pad and looked
up. "Let's get back to the subject at hand. About
your father...?"
"My Father, OK, so back to the lab. I asked you
before what you know about war gods. Well?"
"Nothing, because we left all that behind a long
time ago. This IS the age of reason after all."
"You have no idea, do you? About reason or
anything like it. You and your kind have been so busy
doing in the innocent and denying Spirit that reason
has escaped you. I'm not talking reason or even
reasonable. I'm talking war gods. Do you know who or
what one is? Or have an idea what one would be if they
existed?"
"Your father was a war god. OK, let's go with
that. Which culture is that from? What was his
name?"
"No good! How do I get through here? Right.
I'll change the appellation. In what you call
psychology there are personified impulses, ideas that
are primal and need discipline. If they get away from
you there is hell to pay..literally. But these
feelings are not new with your race. They existed from
the Beginningless Beginning and will be with whatever
people are in the right condition to gestate them. Is
that better?"
"Much! Thank you. So your father was one of
these primal instincts."
The elf paused and took a deep breath. This was
such a tedious conversation. "Right, that will do.
It's still easier to say things in mythological form.
Well..The Mother has always had a consort of one kind
or another. She is constant, always what She was
created to be but these others...they come and go, if I
am being clear here. Just which one is My father is
irrelevant. At least, it has never occupied my
thoughts at all. It makes no difference. My brothers
and sisters are of the same mind. Who Dad is just
doesn't cut the corn."
"Colorful phrase but it doesn't relate to my
question."
"Look, Sugar, the answer would relate even less.
Suffice it that I am here, The Mother is my mother, as
She is yours, and this session is staggering like a
drunk. Is there anything else you want to know? Am I
crazy or what?"
"Two questions if you don't mind. First, where do
you live the rest of the year? Are you busy stealing
all that time? And second, if you are a primal being,
or the son of one, why don't you just...leave?"
"Excellent! You do have a mind after all. Where?
Just about anywhere at all, anywhere I like. And yes,
I'm always stealing something from somebody. The
second is more complicated. Haven't you ever heard of
elves and iron? How it is supposed to melt us, kill
us, weaken us somehow?"
"My grandmother used to tell stories...".
"A good woman, she. And in her role as elder she
tried to tell you the truth but you insisted on
education that took you away from the core of things.
>From Unity to Chaos. But..that's OK. Iron doesn't do
squat except slash and pierce. Much of that were tales
we introduced and encouraged. Helps to keep the enemy
off balance. But there are things that bind me. ‘Just
leave?' Suffice it to say I can't and lets put it down
there. You have your business, I have mine.
Americans are too used to what they call Liberty to bow
their heads before anything or anyone, let alone a Law
that is not explained. Anything else?"
"Actually...", Molacha said as he looked at the
pages of notes before him, "no, I guess not. It would
be wonderful to talk longer but Jack needs the report
by tonight. Maybe we will speak again sometime."
"Oh, we'll speak alright. Just not to each other.
I need to say one more thing to you. Off the subject,
but the words keep coming and if I don't pay
attention.... Time is not a line or a circle or
anything sensible.
Time is a thought and thoughts change." He was
especially intense, eyes boring into Raimundo Molacha
like diamond drills. He held up one hand as though to
stop motion. "I know that makes no sense but it will.
Trust me, it will. And you will remember."
And he did remember...for awhile. But the
forgetting process in humans is strange, more like
storage capacity. Later it made less sense than the
first time, but he remembered.
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